Going in with a BLANK canvas

I learnt something very valuable the other week that I want to share with you guys. For a good few months, I had been having difficulties working in partnership with a worker/organisation. From my subjective point of view early on in our working relationship, the worker was very disconnected, obstructive and unwilling to build a relationship with me (for understandable, non-personal reasons). Going into my interactions with this worker was very difficult as I recognised that each week I was carrying in more mental baggage related to our relationship. Each week, I would come into our time together with a pre-emptive mindset, one which was tampered by the previous weeks and interactions. I was propelling myself week after week into a low vibrational field and I eventually was giving off a resistance and unwilling energy. I was suggested by others to end the relationship and look elsewhere for another opportunity as the worker was “not a person we would want to work with”. But, for some reason, that direction and decision did not sit well with me.

So I decided to change how I went into the situation. I decided to go into it with a blank canvas every time. All my thoughts and feelings regarding the worker, I left behind, I did not carry it with me. I realised that the words and things that were thrown at me were not in fact hurting me, it was my attachment and perspective of them that was hurting me. So understanding this, I was a blank canvas every time. Week by week after my decision to change my interaction, the worker slowly opened up and became more willing towards building our relationship. I believe that on a subconscious level, the worker could sense my openness and willingness to connect.

I learnt that if we want change, and we are going into the same situation with the same mentality and expecting different results, we’re going to be in for shocker. I also learnt to not look into others to be the change agents for my feelings and emotions. All the work begins from within and the external world will shift along with it when it is ready.

Catch all you Seekers around! And remember, be kind to yourself 🙂

With love always,
Linh